I have received the result of my work evaluation today. I can’t help to not get emotional about it. But i didn’t cry, don’t worry.
To live and survive these days is the toughest struggle for me. The daily needs has been getting more and more expensive as each day passes by. It is getting harder to survive.
I admit, i am afraid to lose my job. Beside for the facts that I love it and I am enjoying every tasks given to me, it is already my life. It has been the air that I am breathing and the one that provides food in our table and fills up our stomach. I am the breadwinner of the family and losing a job is least thing I would want to happen to me.
And now the result is out. The nervousness is killing me and I hate it when my patience is being test this way.
“This is the moment you have been waiting for”, the HR told me.
For a moment, my world stopped spinning as I wait for the next set of words that she would be telling me.
“You have passed,” and the thorn that was stuck in my throat was removed.
“Hooray!”, my heart jumped in joy but my face showed no emotion. It is a talent that was given to me. To hide my true feelings.
Everyday I was waiting until I have forgotten about it and it has been more than a month before the result was revealed. I have been traveling through a rough road lately. And in the day you least expect things like this, is the day they would always come. It just come on the moments that you have nowhere else to turn to.
I am just happy right now. Just now. I don’t want to get overexcited about it. I just want to savor this moment silently with a smile.
In every rough road, there is a lesson to learn. In every good things that come is a chance to be happy and prepare yourself for a bigger battle ahead.
kinda tired now and i am still waiting.
i got here at seven in the morning ang it is already almost six i am still here. 50% of my precious saturday spent was spent working.
if only people could survive by just staring blankly at the ceiling, i would gladly voluteer and keep that career for the rest of my life. i may have the title for “Most Number of Hours Staring Blankly on Nothing Award” or the “Best Couch Potato of the Century” award.
My supervisor already approached and asked me why i am still here and i said ‘I am waiting for a reply’ and told me to just leave my client a message.
And that’s what I did. I’ll just continue this at home later. I still don’t want to miss my saturday.
i am starving already. 😦
- They told me at the blood bank this might happen.
- This is just a 15 minute power nap like they raved about in that time management course you sent me to.
- Whew! Guess I left the top off the Wite-Out. You probably got here just in time!
- I wasn’t sleeping! I was meditating on the mission statement and envisioning a new paradigm.
- I was testing my keyboard for drool resistance.
- I was doing a highly specific Yoga exercise to relieve work-related stress. Are you discriminatory toward people who practice Yoga?
- Darn! Why did you interrupt me? I had almost figured out a solution to our biggest problem.
- The coffee machine is broken.
- Someone must’ve put decaf in the wrong pot.
- … in Jesus’ name. Amen.
I woke up late today.
Waited for a cab for a long time.
Got to office a minute before my shift starts.
My computer ain’t working. All my files are in there. All my program tools are installed there. My client’s file is in there.
I transfered to another workstation. Got disappointed because i have to re-install everything i need. I have to transfer files. Thankfully, i’ve just uploaded my files in the server.
My AIM is not working. Hopefully my clients has read my email that my AIM is not working because he might check on me and think that i am not around. Bad points. tsk!
I have to keep my calm attitude. I don’t want to be furious.
God, please grant me patience.