I started to die long before I was ever born, sadness of truth
Emptiness of solitude, betrayal of love, hopeless future
A mannequin with a face, dull and still as it stood in a corner
A road of no goal, unspoken thoughts, lips sealed, voice unheard
No amount of words could ever summarize the life any person had
And I realized the value of every second that time passes by
Sometimes a genuine smile and a short “Hello” to a lonely person
Is far more worth than the decades of mocking words and faces
I started to paint my life with colors beside black just for a change
Red to paint the love bestowed to me by the people who truly cared
Blue for the loyal friends who stayed by my side in good and bad
Green for the serenity I am enjoying, white for all the wisdom
And yellow for the faith and hope that I will be forever holding
I started to live a happy life the moment I decided to take the wheel
I travelled along the path where there are road blocks and yields
Though the pit stops sometimes took longer than the usual
They were very worthwhile to take the rest and enjoy the break
Photographs are memories taken to remember. When you’re not in it, it’s either you are the one taking it or you just missed the chance to be there may it be a happy one or just a random take.
Looking at old photos saddens me. They make me realize that I missed a lot in life. I lose the chance to be with the people I treasure in life. It’s like traveling back through time to an event where you could have been there but you are not.
I want to travel back in time to be with my family and friends. But traveling back won’t change anything. Once done is done. All I can do now is to make most out of the time I have now.
Make the most out of life. Be happy. Never let life pass you by.
1. Have faith when everything seems to turn their back on me
2. Have courage when everything seems to fall apart
3. Believe that there is hope
4. Never give up even if are already torn apart
5. Be Happy despite the troubles that hinders your way
6. Explore new places for the world is not small as it seems to be
7. I am not alone even if most of the time I feel so lonely
8. I am loved by people close to me
9. I am special in my own way
10. God loves me no matter what
11. I am free to live my life
12. I am alive
13. Though few, I have real friends and that I treasure those wonderful friendships
14. I missed a lot about life
15. I want to live
16. I care
17. I am somebody
18. Simple things makes me happier
19. I treasure the simplicity of life
20. I am strong
“I Wear Black”
I wear black
‘Cause I weep for tomorrow
The day I first breathe
The day of my first morn
I wear black
‘Cause my heart is full of sorrow
Of pain, of fury
For the world abandoned me
I wear black
‘Cause I’m dejected
‘Cause I’m alone
Left by everyone
I wear black
‘Cause I’m misunderstood
For no one dares
To lend an ear
I wear black
‘Cause I’m happy
To see the last drop of sand
In the hourglass
I wear black
‘Cause I rejoice
The very last moment
Of the day I was born
Written: July 18, 2002
This was a poem I wrote exactly four years ago. Can’t believe it has been that long. 🙂
Last summer, i have been reading old magazines and have learned many things about self-improvement. For me, self-improvement is a continuous task that a person should always pay attention.
One article that took my interest is about clutter control. I find it very helpful for me because i could describe my room as the ‘chaotic mass of things’.
Clutter is a confused or disordered state or collection; a jumble
Based on my experience, being trapped in a messy room full of unwanted junks causes my mind troubles. You can’t think straight, oftentimes confused and always feel lazy and sleepy. I have this habit of cleaning my room once then messing it up all the time. It makes me feel down and gives negative energy to me.
Until I read an article in the magazine that pertains to this kind of problem. I have learned that this is a problem in clutter control. From the article, i have learned 3 simple tips on how to keep things under control.
by Barbara Hemphil
- Give every container a purpose. Designate each basket, bowl, drawer, and shelf as the home for a specific item. To get family members into the habit of putting everything in its place, use sticky notes as initial temporary reminders.
- Create a “de-clutter” jar. Break down massive tasks into jobs that can be finished in 30 minutes or less, write them on slips of paper, and toss them in a jar. Then pick out a few chores to do on the weekends or rainy days.
- Donate, donate, donate. Keep large bins in each closet to make donating unwanted items second nature. Instead of holding onto out-of-date or ill-fitting clothes, you can easily toss them into the bin and out of your life.
I have been doing #1 ever since i had the knowledge of things. I love grouping stuffs, organizing and labeling them up. I can be the most organized person out of me yet i can also be the worst when it comes to being unorganized. Conflicting, huh? Me too, I fascinate myself.
The second one got me interested to try it out but in different way. I jot down small tasks into a checklist and whenever I feel bored with my work(home and office), I look at my list and do at least one. And it works. It is like breaking the ice in a lifeless, gloomy Sunday afternoon where you feel so tired and sleepy without doing anything. Here, I could finish series of small task and feel very proud that I have accomplished something.
On the third one, I couldn’t donate things because I don’t have time to go to charity offices and there is no visible donation box around. What I do and have also taught to my brother is that, whenever there is a free time, we segregate our belongings into groups: Old stuffs Working/still useful that can be given away, can be sold to the junk shop, those that have no use anymore and uncategorized.
My mom hates it when I fix my things and give away to the neighbors or others things that are still functional. My reason:”I don’t need them anymore”. It is really hard to let go of the things that had been so close to you. This is what I tell myself, “We had shared our time together. It may be good or bad but I know for sure that they are quality moment. We have reach the point of moving on. I must let you go.” Instead of just being stuck in a spot in the house where nobody is using it, there are those who badly needs them that is why I give them away.
Right now, I try to organize things up. Slowly in small steps. I know I can do this. I can improve myself.
Quote for the day:
Clean surrounding frees your mind and help you think clearly and decide rightfully.