Usually, when “Ber” months start, I am already excited for Christmas. And when October comes, we have already set up our Christmas tree and have already decorated the house.
This year, it was different.
With the idea of moving houses again, i decided to wait for December first and see where we would be staying. I don’t like the idea of redecorating the Christmas tree, thus, we didn’t have one.
Over years, it was a sister-brother tradition to put up Christmas decors which is why it was important to us.
Having no holiday decors at all made me realize how ordinary the holiday season was. It’s as if there is no christmas at all. The holiday spirit was, gone.
Gift shopping tried to make Christmas sink into me. The crowded malls. The long queue in van terminals. The heavy traffic. The Christmas songs on the radio. The doubled number of street children that would mob you for five or ten pesos without saying thank you afterwards.
I pushed myself to prepare and be excited with it. I had my hair treated and my nails done. I did clothes shopping and bought new pairs of shoes to hoard. I went on an early Christmas date because my partner will be at the province for the holidays.
Still, it felt lacking.
Saturday before Christmas woke me up. It was my in-laws anniversary lunch and it was heart warming. To be in a party with homey feeling, it was great.
All these years, I’ve been celebrating Christmas alone with my brother. We have a big extended family but they prefer to celebrate New Year instead because the kids are in the provinces.
Christmas is for kids. I love seeing them happy during this yuletide season. I love the sparkle in their eyes when they receive gifts. That is why every year i see to it that i have gifts for my nephews and nieces. It has been a give back tradition for me to say thanks for the blessings i got for the whole year.
It was a blessed year all in all. The year had a very challenging start and continued until third quarter. I found some breathing time but was just enough to make me remember, “Hey, human! Breathe!”.
Maybe the biggest blessing was that “thing” that i’ve been working for so hard is almost done. I really hope i could have it already early next year. *fingers-crossed*
Other than that, I’m thankful for my brother and partner who never left my side no matter how hard life was and how moody i become sometimes. I am grateful for my beloved friends who always keep in touch even if I am always MIA. Cheers to the wonderful job that I enjoy and love. Thank you also to my colleagues who help me when i needed them or when i just need someone to talk to. To my two wonderful babies, Caspian and Sascha for making our everyday colorful.
To my ipod touch and desktop whom i spend most of my waking time with, may we enjoy more Holidays together.
I hope everyone will still try to look on the brighter side no matter how hard the year has been due to personal circumstances, nature’s fury and financial challenges.
I’ll try to enjoy today with the traditional MMFF movie watching with my brother. Battle gear on. Need to get ready to be squeezed by a crowd of ants, i mean movie goers.
Merry Christmas everyone! ;)