Month: December 2011

2012: Another Year to Welcome

Posted on

Live free. Stay young at heart. And no matter how tough life would be, smile. 

2011 has been an another challenging year for both my personal life and career.

The hurdles has been harder than before but nevertheless, they were all worth the effort, blood and sweat.

I had laughs.

I had tears.

I was able to handle and develop awesome website projects.

I owned my very first dog Sascha. I am a proud owner of GE X500. Owned a second-hand Nissan Cefiro.

I realized that I wasn’t able to travel much this year though. My schedule has been really hectic.

There are a lots of material loses and dramas but it was fine. I know I needed them to grow.

Tomorrow marks the beginning of change. A brand new start.

There are already rough plans for the early quarter of next year. And each one’s output are critical as they are interrelated to each other. Hopefully, I would make the best and rightful choice in every decision I make.

May it be a better year for all of us.

Thanks God for a prosperous 2011 and may I be as strong and firm as ever.

Happy new year everyone and God bless to all 🙂

Enjoy  all the parties! cheers! 😀

Advertisements

Only God Knows Why

Posted on Updated on

The Story of Ben Breedlove

 

I saw this in yahoo news and caught my interest so I searched for his videos and youtube. Sadness in me burst out after I watched the videos. Then Kid Rock’s music played in my head.

 

 

I’ve been sittin’ here trying to find myself
I get behind myself I need to rewind myself
And I feel like number one yet I’m last in line
And when the walls are tumbling down I will always be around
People don’t know about the things I say and do
They don’t understand about the shit I’ve been through
It’s been so long since I’ve been home
I’ve been gone, I’ve been gone way too long
Maybe I’ve forgotten all the things I miss
Oh, somehow I know there is more to life than this
You get what you put in and people get what the deserve
Still I ain’t seen mine, no I ain’t seen mine
I’ve been walkin that thin line
So I think I’ll keep a walking with my head held high
I’ll keep moving on and only God knows why

 

I fear death. I feel life.

Been two days of depression and frustrations.

They say things happen for a reason and sometimes I think, really really hard, what is life ahead of me. I tried to play the game of life fair and square but it seems like no matter how hard I try to sail to the right direction, the wind is blowing hard on me to get off-course. And no matter how tough I tried to project myself to be, still something would attack me from inside and make me crumble.

Tears are peeking out of my eyes. Get a grip, I must not cry.

Emotional blackmail. Yeah. People close to me are very good at this. They are pros on how to hit you hard and crush your heart out.

I am not a showy person and I know I never was. Unconciously I raised myself to hide my emotions. I grew up in a world where predators prey on those who are kindhearted, generous and caring. And I don’t want to be trapped in their baits. I always tell myself I won’t be tricked. I will never take the choice they did.

“Never mind what others do; do better than yourself, beat your own record from day to day, and you are a success.” – William J. H. Boetcker

My uncle once told me, learning from your mistake is intelligent and learning from other people’s mistake is wise. So I tried to live a wiser life. I tried my best to live a rightful life and yes it is really hard especially when you want your loved ones to follow and be with you in doing the right thing. It hurts when you see them making mistakes on their own. And it hurts more when they confide and you give them advice then in the end they would commit the same mistake again.

I want to live simple life but due to responsibilities, I must take a step higher, fast. It’s not that I don’t want a better life. It’s just that I want to enjoy work and live life. Balance. I don’t want to bury my head in paperworks and missed out on life. I want to do them both. But then, you can’t have both worlds.

I am hitting 30’s in a few years, the pressure is in and it still feels like nothing has changed. Everything is still the same, where I am and the people around me. And whenever I’ve already decided to take a step further, things would happen and I would be stuck in the same spot that I am standing on. Nothing is moving.

I don’t know if it is because being mature and responsible has been imposed to me at a very young age that I feel life has been too long for me. I feel responsible for everything in which I know I shouldn’t. Even the smallest things would make me feel guilty.

Change. I’ve been waiting for that to happen. I know everything has been different from before but it still feels the same. It definitely feels the same.

I just wished that the good news that I’ve been dying to hear would come. Please come to me as soon as possible. I still have faith. I don’t want to lose hope. But sadness is eating sh*t out of me.

But I still want this entry to end with a smile. Here is a smiling face that popped in my head and warmed my heart.

🙂 They say dogs are man’s best friend. And they will love you unconditionally. I surely do believe that.

2011 Simbang Gabi Day 9

Posted on

Sadly, I wasn’t able to attend the morning mass. Soooooooo sad… 😦

I attended the Saturday evening mass though. Some say it counts as the ninth one but I guess it’s not.

I am still proud of myself. It’s the first time that I diligently went to simbang gabi for 8 consecutive days. 🙂

Well, I’ll try again next year. 😀

Merry Christmas 🙂

2011 Simbang Gabi Day 8: Pandesal

Posted on

Pinoy favorite especially on a cold morning. Hot pandesal and coffee 😀

2011 Simbang Gabi Day 7: Cassava Cake & Tikoy

Posted on

Cassava Cake

Tikoy

God’s blessings are never spoiled. They are always fresh.

Everyone is blessed by God. It’s up to each of us how we would utilize those blessings. Some people are blinded sometimes because they’re prayers weren’t heard.

It’s not that God ignores us, instead, He grants us the things that we need.

I hope we do not overlook at good things that happens to us and be grateful in life that he blessed us everyday.

2011 Simbang Gabi Day 6: Kutsinta

Posted on

Kutsinta

May dalaw ka ba? Tanong ng mga pasyente sa mental.
May dalaw ka ba? Tanong ng mga matatanda sa Home for the Aged.
May dalaw ka ba? Tanong ng mga preso sa kulungan.
May dalaw ka ba? Tanong ng mga seminarista at mga madre sa kumbento.

Christmas spirit always brings joy and hope but not everyone is merry this yuletide season. Many of us are lucky enough to celebrate it with our loved ones. But some would be far from their families and partners. And it is sadder to those who are don’t have anybody else in their lives because their families have already passed away. Or their parents have left them in the orphanages. Or their families abandoned them in the streets. And it also hurts to those who have been forgotten by people they have cherished in their lives.

Love is something to give.

It is something that you can’t keep to yourself. It is an emotion that you must express.

Love is not love until you share it.

Everyone wants to be loved and cherished and love can fill that empty space in someone else’s heart.

2011 Simbang Gabi Day 5: Piyaya

Posted on Updated on

Piyaya

Trust God above everything else.

It was good news and bad news but in the end everything went well. Hopefully, it would be better next week.

 

2011 Simbang Gabi Day 4: Bibingka

Posted on Updated on

I wasn’t able to post yesterday for I didn’t had the time.

Bibingka

The homily caught my interest but I forgot what I reflected on yesterday. Sorry 😦

Every unborn child is a blessing, either they are planned or not. Their mere existence is a sign that there is still hope for a brand new start.

And no matter what hate and regret you feel, you must still stand on your feet and take responsibility. Every child is a blessing and noone should blame their children for being a jinx to their lives.  Babies don’t have the luxury to choose which parents they would have or which time they would be born. They are gifts that should draw smiles on our faces and happiness to our lives.

— To those children who weren’t able to see how the beautiful world is…

2011 Simbang Gabi Day 3: Taho

Posted on Updated on

Oh yeah! I made it to day 3 😀

Hot taho for the cold stormy weather

“In life there are good news and bad news. We just have to learn to cope with it.” 

Finally, on the third day, I’ve heard a quality sermon. In the previous days, we weren’t able to absorb what the priests were saying as their sermon were really out of context.

I am in the most crucial stage of my life. I am about to face a life-changing decision for myself so I must choose wisely.

For what it is that i am facing right now, I will share later. For now, I want to be mum about it.

I am waiting for some signs, and hoping that it would be a good news. And if it is the bad one, then I guess, I should prepare for it this early.

I just want to be optimistic about it and hope for the best.

Aja 😀