I can no longer count the numerous times i fall
I’m falling over and over in this hole of darkness
But i kept on trying to climb up out of this abyss
There are so many times I got hurt, so many times I cried
And I sometimes wonder, oh why oh why oh why?
Like a faceless mannequin or a shadow standing still
I have no identity, i am lost deep within
Over the years I searched for myself still I am lost
I kept asking Who Am I and why am I still here
The for-loop is endless, a function with no return
Like a do-while with no exit, it doesn’t work at all
I kept on writing my life in code, i forgot to run and test
And so my life hang for minutes, then I crashed in the end
Now I’m debugging my life, where did my code went wrong?
I look at myself in the mirror, the design was not so good
I tried to use some CSS then redesign how i looked
Sometimes I follow the standards, sometimes I don’t care
Just go with the rhythm of my hand and type it all in there.
So clever how I could describe how my life works in code
In words only I could comprehend, In ways only I could do
Now I know what I really want, Only I could understand
That this heart of mine is run in bits and bytes
And the output can be seen as it was echoed in my life.
Dedicated to myself by myself after so many struggles then comes a very inspiring day yesterday.