Month: July 2009
It is a sad or happy day for me. Sad because it is exactly three months since my grandpa passed away. Happy because it is my birthday.
I remembered what Vice Ganda once said in an interview, “it is always your choice to be happy” so I am choosing the latter.
I don’t have anything extravagant for this day. I just wanted to keep it low profiled and simple.
I remembered when I was a kid, I love giving birthday cards to my family. There would always be a drawing of cake in it with lighted candles and a birthday wish. It was a diligent habit that I feel sad if I missed giving a card to anyone.
Here is how I drew my cake back then. Please spare me from the lack of artistry. 😀
Back then, I used to wonder what I would be like after two decades. I believed in the normal stages of growing up. Going to school form elementary, high school and college. Then, after you graduated schooling, you look for a job and get married.
I foresee myself driving my own car to work and living in my own house. Well-planned by a simple-minded kid.
Now that I am, ehem, 24, I realized that life is not easy. It has never been easy. It is not the same as learning ABC. You just have to keep striving, keep your feet together, never lose hope and always remain strong.
I admit, I am no superwoman nor wonderwoman. In high school, I once snapped out of reality and almost ended up my life. Thanks to everyone who stood by me and kept on reminding me how wonderful life is and how a great I am. I never believed that life is beautiful because it is not what I am experiencing.
It is indeed a colorful and I thanked God that he never got tired guiding and looking after me.
Though I don’t have a complete family. Though I don’t drive a fancy car and live in my own house. Though I am not wealthy in money, still I know I am rich. I am rich with love from all the people who cared about me. Blessed with family, friends and talents that no amount of money could ever take away from me.
And so, at the age of 24 I could say, that my life has been very happy. 🙂
Happy birthday to me!
I started to feel sad when Chico and Delle played “Bye Bye” by Mariah Carey. It’ll be exactly 3 months on sunday when my lolo died last April. I really miss him. Can’t help it, I need to unload.
I lived in the province during my elementary years and we had shared quality moments together. Although most of the time, I have a pain in the as* and seems like I don’t care, I really do. I’m just not comfortable showing any affection to them. And the sadder part, I was not there during his last years.
Guilt trip is killing me sometimes thinking that I wasn’t able to say “Thank you” and “I love you”. Of all people, he and Mommy Esen loved me so much, besides my mom of course. No matter how hard-headed I am, they still manage to praise the good things in me. They have accepted whoever I am.
I miss how he messes up my hair and say “Itong batang ire talaga”.
Tears are now pouring in my face just like the heavy rain outside. I just realized how much I miss him and love him.
I don’t know how long I would grieve. I can’t move on. No matter what I do, things around me kept reminding me of him.
I know, he’s proud of my achievements. I know he is. I just wished I could share my stories and adventures with him.
Right now, I feel like a robot. Empty emotions running through my veins.
Btw, it’s my birthday on Sunday. Hope that day I’ll be fine.
We have been planning and preparing for our new site. It would be a tech blog about web development.
I feel very excited about it.
I just finished the wordpress theme conversion.
Later, I’ll be setting the site for tomorrow’s launching 😀
I have been working for three years now. I started working immediately two weeks after graduating college.
My first job is in a small company in West Avenue, Quezon City. It was owned by two Chinese brothers.
My boss was very strict in deadlines and keen for details. The five months I’ve spent there taught me alot in working ethics and introduced me in this job called web development.
My boss there was very kind and thoughtful of his employees. He kept on telling us, “Don’t try to work when you are not feeling well. You’ll only be wasting your time trying work when you are not that productive. Forget work and take a rest.” He even provided a folding bed and foam in the office where we could take a nap whenever we are already having headaches or when we can’t really focus at our tasks.
And so, he have earned my respect and I admired him for that.
My two and half years was spent in a medium-sized company somewhere in Shaw. I started as a data encoder and later on was assigned as a web developer. Even though the company itself didn’t directly trained us about web development, I learned my skills through my colleagues and most, through my frequent researches and study via Internet surfing. Thanks to Google, he has been my best buddy for all these years.
I chose not to write about my experience about my previous company. 😛
I feel like the two years of my life is just equivalent to six months of actual web development experience. You just need to stick to the task laid upon you and nothing else.
And so, I learned to push myself towards the edges to keep on learning for I know in myself, there are still million of things that I don’t know.
I explore. I research. I Google things up.
Every knowledge that I have now is the product of my persistent study.
I thank the people who patiently guided me and never get tired of sharing their knowledge to me.
Now, I am a freelancer.
A new chapter in my career has started to be written.
In this new adventure, I wish to find success.
It has been hard and it will always be no matter what.
I know from the very start, everything will never be as easy as ABC.
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