Happy at 24

It is a sad or happy day for me. Sad because it is exactly three months since my grandpa passed away. Happy because it is my birthday.

I remembered what Vice Ganda once said in an interview, “it is always your choice to be happy” so I am choosing the latter.

I don’t have anything extravagant for this day. I just wanted to keep it low profiled and simple.

I remembered when I was a kid, I love giving birthday cards to my family. There would always be a drawing of cake in it with lighted candles and a birthday wish. It was a diligent habit that I feel sad if I missed giving a card to anyone.

Here is how I drew my cake back then. Please spare me from the lack of artistry.

Back then, I used to wonder what I would be like after two decades. I believed in the normal stages of growing up. Going to school form elementary, high school and college. Then, after you graduated schooling, you look for a job and get married.

I foresee myself driving my own car to work and living in my own house. Well-planned by a simple-minded kid.

Now that I am, ehem, 24, I realized that life is not easy. It has never been easy. It is not the same as learning ABC. You just have to keep striving, keep your feet together, never lose hope and always remain strong.

I admit, I am no superwoman nor wonderwoman. In high school, I once snapped out of reality and almost ended up my life. Thanks to everyone who stood by me and kept on reminding me how wonderful life is and how a great I am. I never believed that life is beautiful because it is not what I am experiencing.

It is indeed a colorful and I thanked God that he never got tired guiding and looking after me.

Though I don’t have a complete family. Though I don’t drive a fancy car and live in my own house. Though I am not wealthy in money, still I know I am rich. I am rich with love from all the people who cared about me. Blessed with family, friends and talents that no amount of money could ever take away from me.

And so, at the age of 24 I could say, that my life has been very happy.

Happy birthday to me!

Rainy Mushy Monday

I started to feel sad when Chico and Delle played “Bye Bye” by Mariah Carey. It’ll be exactly 3 months on sunday when my lolo died last April. I really miss him. Can’t help it, I need to unload.

I lived in the province during my elementary years and we had shared quality moments together. Although most of the time, I have a pain in the as* and seems like I don’t care, I really do. I’m just not comfortable showing any affection to them. And the sadder part, I was not there during his last years.

Guilt trip is killing me sometimes thinking that I wasn’t able to say “Thank you” and “I love you”. Of all people, he and Mommy Esen loved me so much, besides my mom of course. No matter how hard-headed I am, they still manage to praise the good things in me. They have accepted whoever I am.

I miss how he messes up my hair and say “Itong batang ire talaga”.

Tears are now pouring in my face just like the heavy rain outside. I just realized how much I miss him and love him.

I don’t know how long I would grieve. I can’t move on. No matter what I do, things around me kept reminding me of him.

I know, he’s proud of my achievements. I know he is. I just wished I could share my stories and adventures with him.

Right now, I feel like a robot. Empty emotions running through my veins.

Btw, it’s my birthday on Sunday. Hope that day I’ll be fine.

Flash Game: Fly Pig

Fly Pig is an insane shooting game. I mean, seriously! The pigs are flying too fast!!!

Click on the image to see for yourself.

CodingCereal Up and Running

Just finished working on our new site www.codingcereal.com

Feel free to visit =)

Any comments and suggestions are highly appreciated

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Preparing for a New Site

We have been planning and preparing for our new site. It would be a tech blog about web development.

I feel very excited about it.

I just finished the wordpress theme conversion.

Later, I’ll be setting the site for tomorrow’s launching