The Jury has Decided

I have received the result of my work evaluation today. I can’t help to not get emotional about it. But i didn’t cry, don’t worry.

To live and survive these days is the toughest struggle for me. The daily needs has been getting more and more expensive as each day passes by. It is getting harder to survive.

I admit, i am afraid to lose my job. Beside for the facts that I love it and I am enjoying every tasks given to me, it is already my life. It has been the air that I am breathing and the one that provides food in our table and fills up our stomach. I am the breadwinner of the family and losing a job is least thing I would want to happen to me.

And now the result is out. The nervousness is killing me and I hate it when my patience is being test this way.

“This is the moment you have been waiting for”, the HR told me.

For a moment, my world stopped spinning as I wait for the next set of words that she would be telling me.

“You have passed,” and the thorn that was stuck in my throat was removed.

“Hooray!”, my heart jumped in joy but my face showed no emotion. It is a talent that was given to me. To hide my true feelings.

Thanks God.

Everyday I was waiting until I have forgotten about it and it has been more than a month before the result was revealed. I have been traveling through a rough road lately. And in the day you least expect things like this, is the day they would always come. It just come on the moments that you have nowhere else to turn to.

I am just happy right now. Just now. I don’t want to get overexcited about it. I just want to savor this moment silently with a smile.

In every rough road, there is a lesson to learn. In every good things that come is a chance to be happy and prepare yourself for a bigger battle ahead.

Noisy Neighbors by Chico

i have been a Strange Fruit reader since the day i heard chico announced it in rx almost daily.

I could say he is smart and a good writer slash photographer slash DJ slash who knows what more.

Anyways, there is this hot post in his blog entitled ‘Noisy Neighbors‘ wherein he imparts his rant about loud neighbors. It had caught the interest of many especially when a reader named Marcus commented on it. You could see how many fans and friends and readers supported chico and empathizes him with his noisy-neighbor-dilemma.

As what i could understand from the discussion(er debate?), chico was comparing their previous neighbor with the current ones. Both are loud people but the latter happened to noisier and louder.

I empathize with chico. For more than two decades on earth, I have been living in a noisy neighborhood where people sing there esophagus out during their late night inuman and videoke sessions. Children plays in front of your house in the highest volume capacity of their throat speaking words of curses and PI’s all the time. There are these bingo games and chismisan moments during afternoons where you usually take a nap. Grr..

Anyways, back to chico’s blog. The subject that made his blog ‘controversial’ was when he mentioned a nationality in his post where Marcus reacted. For what i could understand, it was a ‘racial discrimination’ issue for one side and on the other side  it is a ‘just so happen to be a’ situation.

In a new post entitled ‘Noisy Neighbors 2‘, Chico answered openly the comment of Marcus defending his side that there is no discrimination happening. It just so happened that people next door are not Filipinos and the behavior are worse than the previous one.

On the other side, Marcus is just saying that it is better not to attributes nationality to situations like this. He is not against the emotional outburst of chico, only to the mentioning of nationality.

As for me and what i have read, both sides have their proper reasoning and defense for the debate.

The post was entertaining and educational as well. I admire the two debaters who just shared a healthy discussion. kudos bro!

2008 Wishlist

Next month, I’ll be adding another count to my age. Sadly, I am starting to feel that I am old and that I am missing a lot. On the other hand, I am very happy in how my life turned out and what it would be in the future.

As I was taking a break, I decided to write a birthday wishlist(as inspired by ate marian). And as I am jotting them down, the list is getting longer and longer. For now, here are the things I want in my birthday.

Book – I love reading books and I feel i missed a lot of the bestselling books in the market.

• Eleven Minutes – Paulo Coelho
• Anne of Green Gables – Lucy Maud Montgomery
• A Message to Garcia – Elbert Hubbard
• Valley of the Dolls – Jacqueline Susann
• To Kill a Mockingbird – Harper Lee
• Fear of Flying – Erica Jong
• Goodnight Moon – Margaret Wise Brown
• The Pillars of the Earth – Ken Follett
• The Shack – William P Young
• As I Lay Dying – William Faulkner

CD

• Boyz II Men – I just love them so much

Manga

• Naruto – what can I say, I am a naruto fanatic from the very beginning

Gadget – just a wish hehe

• White Apple MacBook
• Canon Digital Rebel XTi / XSi

If it is christmas and santa is real, i’ll hang up a very big sock(maybe a sack with be better ) in the window.

There is nothing wrong with dreaming and wishing y’all heheh

Still Stuck in the Office

*sigh

kinda tired now and i am still waiting.

i got here at seven in the morning ang it is already almost six i am still here. 50% of my precious saturday spent was spent working.

if only people could survive by just staring blankly at the ceiling, i would gladly voluteer and keep that career for the rest of my life. i may have the title for “Most Number of Hours Staring Blankly on Nothing Award” or the “Best Couch Potato of the Century” award.

My supervisor already approached and asked me why i am still here and i said ‘I am waiting for a reply’ and told me to just leave my client a message.

And that’s what I did. I’ll just continue this at home later. I still don’t want to miss my saturday.

i am starving already.

What “Jhoy” Means

I have read about “What’s Your Name’s Hidden Meaning?” from Eduard. I decided to try it out to see if the meaning would fit my personality.

Here’s how the meaning of my name goes:

What Jhoy Means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed… even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you… especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You’re a strong person.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.

You may miss out by not settling down, but you’re too busy having fun to care.

Is it true? I can say most and it is fantastic.

What do you think? Is this me or somebody else?