When Loneliness Strikes

when loneliness strikes and kills my peace
i can’t move a bit and i got stuck in my place
i can’t breathe, i can’t think, i am numb
the world around me moves in fast phase
the time is so fast as well as my heartbeat
i am now starting to feel dizzy
and my sight is starting to blur
i am trapped in confusion and i am freaking
this moment of shock is killing me
i can’t talk, my lips are sealed
i can’t move, my body is glued standing
i am struggling, i am going to faint
this loneliness is suffocating me
i can’t grasp to anything around me
nobody could hear, my lips are still sealed
take me somewhere, be with me
i am alone and i don’t wanna be

If One Day You Found Me Gone

if one day you woke up and found me gone
with no trace to where i would have been
would you dare to look for me?

and if your search took you so long
will it ever occur to you to stop looking?
will you ever get tired waiting?

and if you realized that i’ll be gone forever
would you still think of me?
would you still remember our moments together?

When You Had the Chance to Say It

When you have told someone about anything, there is no turning back. All the words were already spoken and you can’t take it back.

What if those words have already resided in you for a very long. Those thoughts that have been lurkering in your head.

What if you know that they are hurtful, would you still pursue? Even if you know that it would hurt that someone, would you do it?

But what if it’s the only thing that has been holding you back from being you in front of him, would rather wear the mask? Isn’t it right to tell the truth and that honesty is the key to every relationship that you had and will had. May it be to your family, friend or partner.

Honesty is the key factor to solidify a relationship. But what if too much honesty could cause that solid foundation that you have protected for so long to stumble. Would you risk breaking it apart? And even if doesn’t break, doesn’t having a crack the same thing?

What would you do?

Tell him the truth and let your relationship fall or keep it inside you and be hurt forever?

Which would you choose?

Prayer of Saint Francis

Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace;
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
and where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master,
grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood, as to understand;
to be loved, as to love;
for it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.

Amen.