Unanswered Life in Code

I can no longer count the numerous times i fall
I’m falling over and over in this hole of darkness
But i kept on trying to climb up out of this abyss
There are so many times I got hurt, so many times I cried
And I sometimes wonder, oh why oh why oh why?

Like a faceless mannequin or a shadow standing still
I have no identity, i am lost deep within
Over the years I searched for myself still I am lost
I kept asking Who Am I and why am I still here

The for-loop is endless, a function with no return
Like a do-while with no exit, it doesn’t work at all
I kept on writing my life in code, i forgot to run and test
And so my life hang for minutes, then I crashed in the end
Now I’m debugging my life, where did my code went wrong?

I look at myself in the mirror, the design was not so good
I tried to use some CSS then redesign how i looked
Sometimes I follow the standards, sometimes I don’t care
Just go with the rhythm of my hand and type it all in there.

So clever how I could describe how my life works in code
In words only I could comprehend, In ways only I could do
Now I know what I really want, Only I could understand
That this heart of mine is run in bits and bytes
And the output can be seen as it was echoed in my life.

Dedicated to myself by myself after so many struggles then comes a very inspiring day yesterday.

PHP Developers Summit 2010

An Invitation

In partnership with Microsoft Philippines, PHP User Group Philippines presents PHP Developers Summit 2010. We are inviting you to come and join us in this gathering of the country’s best tech-talents, professionals and web developers promoting the use of PHP and open source solutions in the enterprise and schools. Free flowing coffee with lots of freebies and raffle prizes plus new friends to meet! So what are you waiting for? Register now. See you all there! =)

Be there…

Date: January 30, 2010, Saturday
Time: 8:00 AM – 5:00 PM
Venue: The Grand Ballroom, Hotel Rembrandt
26 Tomas Morato Extension, Quezon City, Philippines

Admission Fees

Early Bird Promo – Php 1,000.00 (until December 31, 2009 only)
Regular – Php 1,200.00
Walk-in – Php 1,500.00

Inclusive of

• Meals (Lunch + Snacks)
• Conference Kit
• Event Shirt
• Raffle Entry
• Other Freebies

For more details, please visit the official website at http://conference.phpugph.com/

Death is a Creepy Word

Death is a word that makes me cringe. It won’t make me sleep at night. I oftentimes lie in my bed with my eyes widely open staring blankly at the ceiling. It haunts me in my every dream. I won’t blink an eye because I believe when I do so, it would come for me.

I wish I never knew the sad reality behind that word. This year, a member of our family experienced it. A number of celebrity experienced it. A loved one of other people I know experienced it. Even I someday would experience it. I am just afraid to admit.

Death is the only thing that makes every species even. Some die a peacefully and some in gruesome way but all in all they pass away.

My fear of death may be because of the unknown. What would happen to me after my last breath? Is there really another world? A world that is only meant for souls? What would happen to the people that I love? Would they cry for me when I’m gone? Can they move on? Where will my soul be heading? Will I still remember the marvelous journeys in my life? I wish won’t forget all the memories.

It would be a black and red christmas for us. It’s the first Christmas that Lolo is not around. On the first day of December, it was an extra happy feeling. It’s Christmas! But today, I realized, it will never be the same. I can’t remember that I gave him any gifts. I have a vague memory that I gave him a Christmas card as a kid with my childish writings in plain Crayola drawings. That made me smile.

Every second ticks. Were they worth it? Where did my twenty four years of existence has gone to? Before that creepy word rips the breath out of me, was I able to spent a quality time with my family?

Death is a creepy word and yet it makes me value every second of my life.

Happy Thanksgiving 2009

It is not a tradition for Filipinos to celebrate thanksgiving but we celebrated it anyways.

I didn’t cook any turkey but I made some tuna cakes. Isipin mo na lang Turkey yan

Here is a raw turkey for you. Served fresh from the kitchen. hehe

Happy Thanksgiving!

Our Little Christmas Tree

Just finished decorating our 3 year old Christmas tree. It stands 15 inch. Almost the height of our TV.

“Si Krismas Tri”

“Ang Star ni Krismas Tri”

Santa: “I am the king of the Christmas Tree”

Merry Christmas